You're the only one who can fix me

My boyfriend showed up at my door unexpectedly. He said he told me last week, but I guess I forgot. I told him about Onision's divorce and I asked him if he still thought we were compatible. He smiled, hugged me and gave me examples of why we are compatible. He's just so sweet and I think that's why I think we'll make it through this.
It's showing up when I need him the most.
Being there for each other.
Saying the right words.
He's the only one who can fix me.

The end of love?

Recently I saw that a couple that was married for 5 years, filed for divorce. I was shocked. I was speechless. They looked so perfect for each other and now they discover they aren't compatible? After 5 years of marriage? It makes me wonder. If they split up after all they have been through, what is the difference with my relationship? I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years now. What if the same happens to us? Did we wast our time? Is it worth all the pain we will cause? We are going through some hard times now, with school and the holidays we aren't spending together. I fear we aren't going to survive this. I know we can, but will it happen?

Without light

I used to be afraid of the dark. I feared the unknown. I had small lights in my room, otherwise I couldn't go to sleep. I still love the little lights. Christmas decorations, candles and even the blue light from my hard drive. It can change the mood completely.
Without light, there is no color.
Without light, you cannot see. 
Without light, we cannot be found.

Snow #2

I'm so sorry

Some time ago I discovered a new band and since then I haven’t stopped listening to them when I’m on the road. Now I found out it’s pretty much one guy who did all the instruments and vocals himself and that’s just amazing.
Yesterday I found his Facebook and Twitter. He said about a week ago he and his wife were expecting a baby. But yesterday he told us they had lost the baby. My heart just crumbled. I am so sorry. I can’t help but feel so terrible about this. I don’t really know them, but I’ve been listening to his music for so long now and I watched all his video’s on Youtube. And now I feel so sorry for him. I can’t get it out of my head.
I told my bf and he just changes the subject and talks about the presents he wanted.
A terrible thing happened and you don’t even care? What if it happened to you?
I care. I would be crushed if it happened to me.
I don’t know if he was being a DB or he wanted to change the conversation to something more positive. I couldn’t think of anything else. I’m just so sorry.

Winter Time

Sunset

Sunrise

Fluffy Clouds

The beginning

Girl: Hi :)
Boy: Hey.
Girl: I heard you like somebody…
Boy: Yeah, yeah.
Girl: Ooh, who is it? 
Boy: I’m not telling.
Girl: Fine, do I know her?
Boy: Yeah.
Girl: Hmm, what’s she look like?
Boy: Do you have a mirror?


We Know It's True

About me

About.me profile now online

A Perfect Moment #2

I was on the bus on my way to school. It was raining. I was listening to Earth to World by Projected Twin. And I got this image in my head.
A guy, standing in the rain.
Breathing heavily.
Asking for my love.
Promising to never let anything come between us.
I stept into the rain and grabbed him.
Our kiss so full of fire, you could see the steam coming from our bodies.
A perfect moment.


 Earth to World

I feel lost

Today we had some free time between two classes. I thought I could spend that time with my bf, but he had other plans. He wanted to study. I could have used the time as well, but I didn't bring my stuff, because I thought I would be doing other things. Now we sat in a small room where we couldn't talk because there were other people "studying". He could have called me, he could have warned me.
I feel so lost sometimes.
I know he's there for me, but not when I need him the most.

Too Lost in You 1

The difference between what we want and what we need

There is a big difference between what we want and what we need.
What we want can feel so strong, so passionate, so powerful,
but what we need is security, to feel save with someone, to be able to count on someone, someone you can be yourself with.
But what do we choose?
That what we want and we let our heart guide us
or
what we need and we use our brains?
When you find someone you want and need, keep on to him forever.
Never let him go.

Streaks in the sky