Influence

I watched this show were people had to live in one house for a couple of weeks and I saw this guy. He reminded me of someone I used to like. And love. He used to tell me about all the parties he went to. I didn't go to a lot of parties. I knew, that if I drank one drink to many, I would probably wake up the next morning in his bed. I get drunk so easily, I can never trust myself with it. So I don't trust people who drink. I have seen so many guys change under the influence of alcohol, I hate it. It destroys who you are.

But then again, if I drank and I let myself go, I would stop thinking and just do. If I saw a guy that was my type and got to know him that one night, I wouldn't think. I would sleep with him and maybe regret it the day after. But what if I didn't? What if I had no regrets? I would do it again. What if that night had to happen, for greater things to happen. What are the odds on meeting someone like that and it turning out you're perfect for each other? Whatever attracted me to him, did so for a reason. There is a reason for everything. What has to happen, happens.

 
Only by the Night