Love isn't easy

I'm 19 years old. I have a little less than 3 years of school left.
I met my boyfriend when I was 16. I wasn't doing well so I redid my year. Everyone in my class was at least a year younger than me. Including my future boyfriend. He had really short hair and was shorter then me. He was not my type. Not at all.

I always give people a chance. So I was new in this class and I decided to get to know these people.
My first attention went to this guy with half long hair. I used to love guys with long hair, so those were the people I wanted to know about first. I got to know him and after a week, I noticed that he was a little crazy. I tried to back off more, but it was all ready too late. He followed me around, every chance he got. Fortunately I went to my friends, who were not in my class, during the breaks. But in class, I couldn't turn around without him right behind me. Everyone noticed this and they had more experience with him (because they had been in the same class for 2 years). They helped me with little "stalker-problem". It was one of the best classes I was in, now that I look back at it. I fell for someone in this class, but it never came to love, because we thought so similar. It would have never worked. He also knew this and actually told me this literally. He was into party's and I was into concerts. He had had plenty of girls (so he said, but I doubt that) and I had had 1 boyfriend (which lasted around 9 days).

 But I was tired of being alone. My search went on. Then my future boyfriend started to get my attention. He talked to me a lot and supported me when I needed it the most. Right before the Christmas holiday, he told me he loved me. I was not prepared for this and tried to get away as fast as possible. I didn't see him for 3 days and then it was school again so I had to see him. But what to answer? I said no. I didn't love him at that moment and thought it wouldn't be fair to him to say yes and lead him on.

But... 3 Months later I thought about how I could be so stupid. I was looking for love so hard, I couldn't see it right before my eyes. We still kept in touch. So we called one day and it led to a conversation until 3 in the morning. Since that conversation I was no longer single. It still took a while for me to feel comfortable, because this was my first real relationship. But I learned to trust him. We had our problems and overcame them. We have been through so much together.

Unfortunately I wanted to study  to work in a laboratory and so did he. So now we're in the same class again (just as the last 3 years). I thought that if we would see each other too much, we might get tired of each other. The change would have been welcome. But I'm going for a different kind of lab than him, so we'll probably will be in different classes soon. But now if I see him, it's at school. If I see him at home, we'll probably have to study. It's just most of the time about school. He can be very negative when it comes to school. He can nag more than an old woman. I get so tired of it. When he calls, it's about school, to ask questions. We don't do that much romantic stuff anymore. But after he asked me the school stuff (just like an hour ago), he sends me this text: "How do you keep up with me? :)". There are these moments were I just want to jump him and cover him with my kisses. There are moments I want to strangle him (not really) and moments I want to kiss him.

 Love isn't easy. But it is worth it.